Why sucking dick is better than sex with women...

I am bisexual and very much enjoy sex with women. In fact, most of the time I am fantasizing about women and watching hetero porn. But, there is also the bi part of me that craves to suck cock and to pleasure a man. Maybe it's the taboo of it that arouses me, but when I feel the horniest and most turned on, I'm almost always thinking about sucking cock and having a man cum in my mouth. I realized that sex with men gives me an experience that is so much deeper and introspective and spiritual than sex with a woman. These are some of my thoughts on why sucking a cock is more fulfilling to me...

1. I have a passion to please others, and it's the most intense way to give pleasure to another person. As humans, we crave connection and enjoy making someone else feel good. A big part of sex is pleasuring another person and all the feelings of validation and accomplishment that come with that. To me, sucking a cock is the strongest way to experience this because of all the direct feedback and straightforwardness there is to pleasuring a guy. And when a man orgasms, it's undeniable and extremely physical to witness.

2. There is something so familiar and comforting about penis. I am a man, with my own penis, and am very intimately familiar with how it works, and all of the feelings and desires that come with having one. Being able to connect to another man through our shared masculinity, the very essence of what makes us men, feels very spiritual and enlightening. When I touch another man's penis, I feel free. There's no judgment and I feel accepted. This man accepts my desires and the pressures and expectations of me being a "man" are briefly lifted. My only responsibilities now are this man's penis and his pleasure, and that feeling is relieving and empowering.

3. By design, the sexual system of a man is to give. Women want a man to be dominant and take from them. But with a man, I feel submissive and want to be given something. Maybe it is connecting to the divine masculine, but I feel like when I suck dick, I am connecting to something higher than me, or something deep inside my psyche. I am a man, with a penis, so to worship another penis is a way to explore my own masculinity and identity. In spiritual belief, enlightenment comes when you focus inwards, and being a man that sucks other mens' dicks, it is an exploration of self-discovery and learning for me. His penis represents the divine masculine, it is a place that can answer my questions. His balls are literally producing a sacred life energy, and unlike making a woman orgasm, a man produces something physical and can give you something in the process.

4. The taboo of sucking dick makes me crave it strongly. It's funny how telling someone to "suck my balls" is an insult that you should revile as a man, but to me, it's a privilege and pleasure that I love...When the world tells you not to do something, it almost makes you want to do it more. And honestly, the majority of people are sheep, so maybe they don't want you to do it because there's something special or powerful about doing it. I think there are more men out there than we realize that desire some kind of man-on-man experience.

5. Sucking cock helps me face my fears. Fucking a woman can give me a lot of confidence and affirmation, but there are other aspects of me that it doesn't help me confront. Sucking cock requires me to go outside of my comfort zone. For one, I relinquish my masculine dominance and practice submission. It requires me to be self-less, which is a way for me to connect to a higher power and inner strength in myself. It can feel terrifying to give up control, but submitting to another man's masculinity is a way for me to practice that. All of the things that come with sucking cock require giving up some control and even discomfort. Getting my mouth stretched open, choking on his cock when I try to deep throat it, making my eyes water, feeling the heavy weight of his shaft slap my face and mouth, feeling the strong grip of his hand on the back of my head or neck, obeying all of his commands, etc. All of these things are not necessarily comfortable, but the challenge of it and the courage I have to submit and absorb all of his masculine aggression makes me very, very aroused.

6.There is no greater sexual reward than a man's semen. Basically back to point 1, but the orgasm of a man is objectively the most visual, intense, and sensory-stimulating thing you can ever experience sexually. As men, we know that feeling when you are close to cumming, how you kind of black out and lose control and all you can do is give into letting go and cumming. I experience that same feeling when another man is about to cum. I don't feel that when I pleasure a woman. The anticipation in that final moment is both thrilling and anxiety-inducing to me. All I can do is exist in the present moment, no thought, just pure submission to what is about to happen to me. For me, that is almost always taking his cum into my mouth. After the intensity of pleasuring his cock and balls and being dominated by his masculine aggression, I feel intoxicated by his strength and force. Then, to hear his beefy moans and grunts, to feel him become so weak, so desperate, so much urgency, such a strong need to do something, it makes me feel the craziest mix of emotions. I feel free because I'm so lost in the present moment of lust and pleasure, but trapped because I've given him total control. He is the giver, and I am the receiver. I feel empowered that I get to see him so vulnerable, but also degraded because he is using me. Either way, the feeling of him cumming is indescribable. Hearing his moans as the thick warmth of sperm shoots across my tongue is a pure rush of dopamine. Tasting it and knowing that it's coming out of his balls, out of that manly ballsack that makes him a man where all his testosterone and sperm are brewing, it's disgustingly delicious.

7. Sucking dick is the only way to physically absorb someone else's pleasure. A masculine trait is supposed to provide, and in this case, he provides you his literal masculinity and life force when he shoots. There is just nothing really that a woman can provide you that is the same experience as this. All of your work and effort, all of his pleasure and good feelings, it gets concentrated and focused into that load. And the only time you will ever see a man's semen is when he is experiencing the greatest pleasure. It is a gift. You get to literally eat all of his good feelings and pleasure. You get to swallow his vitality and make it part of you. That unique taste in your mouth that can only be the taste of sperm? That's you experiencing something greater than yourself. That's you learning something about yourself, your boundaries, and your own masculinity. I love having sex with women, but I don't feel these deep intellectual, deeply personal thoughts about identity than when I'm eating another man's sperm and absorbing his energy.